You have to begin somewhere.

Those are words I've heard over and over again. You have to begin somewhere. So I'm starting at the bottom and working my way up. This post is just going to be my goals, dates and stats of where I am right now. I'm still trying to decide whether or not I'm going to upload progress pictures. I hate my stomach. I hate my thighs. I hate my ass. I don't really want to take photos of them but if I don't I'm 99% sure I won't see the progress for myself if I don't.

Last year I lost 10kg and I didn't see where I lost it. To me my whole body was still chubby despite the fact that everyone was commenting on 'how slim' I had gotten. I had lost 10kg {around 20lb} in the space of a month. It was amazing. I felt like I was on cloud nine when I saw those numbers getting smaller and smaller. Soon the number on the scale began to dictate my mood and how my day would be. If it was a high number then I would have a bad day, if it was a low number then it would be a good day and I might allow myself a small treat. Afterwards I would question my sanity and make sure I burned twice the amount of calories at the end of the day. Back then I was surviving on 500-600 calories per day and I was burning about half of that through running and various exercises. So now I'm going to {vaguely} follow the same plan and hope like hell for the same results.

My goals:

1. Lose 8.2kg which is roughly 18lb.
2. Thigh gap, flat stomach, ribs and collarbone <3
3. Run or walk 4km per day.
4. Drink at least a litre of water per day.
5. Do at least 100 sit ups and leg lifts per day.

After I went to America and went on birth control I gained weight and it did come off eventually but it's made a reappearance after I dated a guy a month ago. We just ate fast food every time we were together and I gained 5.2kg or 11.5lb when I was with him. We broke up a while ago and now I'm even more determined to get rid of this weight. Even more, I want to get down to the weight I was before I went to America which was 38.5kg or 85lb.

My stats:

LW: 38.5kg / 85lb

CW: 46.2kg / 102lb

HW: 50.1kg / 110lb

Neck: 11.0"

Waist {small}: 24.5"

Waist {large}: 27"

Hips: 30.5"

Thighs: 18.5"

These are my stats now. They will change. I am determined now. Nothing and no one will stop me. 

Goal weights:

GW#1: 44kg / 97lb

GW#2: 42kg / 93lb

GW#3: 40kg / 88lb

UGW: 38.5 / 85lb

I have to admit, the last time I was 38.5kg or 85lb I was fourteen years old and I'm eighteen now. This goal might be a little unrealistic or 'crazy' to some people but hey, I acknowledge that but it's my body and I can do what I want. I will be doing a weekly 'weigh in' on Sundays and I'll measure myself as well then write a lovely post for you guys. I'm also going to be writing a daily 'food and exercise diary' so I can track what I eat and how often I exercise. I do have an account on myfitnesspal so feel free to add me if you're on there too! Just tell me who you are and how you found me then I'll accept <3

Stay strong lovelies, we can do this <3

xo