Mince and vegetable pie. When that was gone my mum said she left some mince in a cup for later. I ate it.
Bananas, oranges, pears and lettuce. Who the fuck binges on fruit or vegetables?!
Chocolate.
Pastry cups with jam filling.
Chocolate mousse cake.
Coffee.
Crackers with cheese and sweet chilli sauce.
99% of that was eaten within half an hour I'd say and I only managed to actively burn about 200 calories from walking on the treadmill. I gained 0.5kg / 1.1lb overnight. That's disgusting. I know to some of you that doesn't seem to be a lot of food but I never listed the quantity in which I ate it. That's the thing that constitutes a binge, isn't it? People also have their own ideas of a binge. For some it could simply be 100 calories over their goal, for others its 1,000 over, others its a full binge of 4,000 calories.
Today my mum and her boyfriend are going out to the city for a food tasting day so I'm taking advantage of their absence and doing a liquid fast for today. I might continue it onto tomorrow, we'll see. Anyway, the only thing that is going to pass through my lips will be water and maybe chewing gum. I'm yet to decide on that since it contains 9 calories for two pieces.
I'm not in a very good mood today. Waking up to 45.7kg / 100.8lb is not good for me. In fact, it's doing my head in. I had a goal of getting to 93lb by the end of this month and what have I done? Gained weight and maintained it. Ugh. I'm sick of this. I'm sorry girls, I'm just not on form today. Maybe if I go for a walk I'll get my endorphins up. Hopefully.
I've reassessed my goals too. I wanted to lose 1.3kg / 2.9lb in four days and it was possible, at the beginning of the goal. Now? Not so much. So instead I just want to get rid of that pesky .7kg / 1lb that has magically appeared on my body overnight. When I go to town I want to be a solid 45kg / 99lb. I must be under 100lb.
Stay strong <3
xo
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