Food diary!

Well, today wasn't so horrible if I have to be completely honest. No, I didn't stick to eating only fruits and vegetables today and no, I didn't eat only 'healthy' foods but I did manage to stay under my calorie goal. You know, net calories anyway. I'm still trying to decide if I want to only eat 700 calories per day or if I want to be at net 700 :/ Hm, decisions, decisions. I think I'll just try to stay at 700 calories net for the moment and see where it leads me. I might just decrease it to 600 net or whatnot later on. We'll see. What's your opinion on the matter?

Lately I really have been so incredibly horny and I have no way to deal with it. Ugh. It's really beginning to be such a problem. Like right now I would like nothing more than a man to bend me over and fuck me doggie style or for a woman to slowly lick me, all over ;] Oh yes, news flash: I'm bi-sexual. Don't like it? Then get off my page. The tension is killing me but I said I wasn't going to do anything sexual until I got a boyfriend or girlfriend I guess. We'll see what happens ;] Until then I'm stuck with blogging late at night while secretly wishing that someone will come and take away this burning desire. I'm sure it's slowly killing me, even more than being fat is >.< Anyway, I've been rambling. I tend to get like that when I have sex on the brain. Here's my food diary:

Breakfast: 50 calories
Small orange: 50 calories

Lunch: 271 calories
Moconna instant coffee: 2 calories
Extra slim budget milk, 50mL: 19 calories
Splenda: 0 calories
Crumbed, spicy chicken leg: 90 calories {approx}
Home baking: 110 calories >.<

Snack: 390 calories
Peanut m&m's: 228 calories
Arnott's light cruskit, 4 crackers: 86 calories
Brenton cracked pepper pate: 76 calories

Dinner: 152 calories
Home baking: 150 calories
Coke zero, 300mL: 2 calories

Daily goal: 700 calories
Total net calories: 863 calories
Calories lost from exercise: 427 calories
Allowance from exercise: 1,127 calories


So I'm aiming to have a daily intake of around 700 calories but if I do exercise then I'm 'allowed' to eat more than I would on a normal day. So today I burned 427 calories from actual exercise so I was allowed to eat 427 more calories than normal, making my 'daily goal' for today a grand total of 1,127 calories. I think I'm going to make a new rule: Never eat more than half of what you burn. So if I burn 400 calories a day I'm only allowed to eat an extra 200 calories. If I keep this up it should mean that I'll never eat over 1,000 calories a day. Just thinking about doing that makes me a little nervous actually. 1,000 is such an unsafe number. 700 is good. 700 is safe. 700 is familiar.

I also just calculated my BMR on a tonne of different sites and all of them say the same, well mostly the same. On five different sites it says I should be eating between 1,307-1,311 calories per day because that's how many my body burns just to keep itself going. But on myfitnesspal {the only site I truly trust} it says that I can have 1,242 calories per day to keep my body functioning normally. That being said, I'm eating nearly half of what I should be. Just from eating 700 calories per day and having no exercise I should technically be in the negatives. -542 to be exact. Scary but exciting. More calories burned is more weight loss for me!

I hope your day has been better than mine. I really need to learn how to control my food cravings :S
Stay strong lovelies <3